Well, here it goes: my nth attempt at starting a new travel blog after retiring my old one in 2012. Whereonearth served me well for about 7 years as I traipsed around the world working on National Geographic ships as a Wellness Specialist and traveling to far corners of the earth during my time off. I wrote about my adventures in Thailand, Ecuador, Russia, Baja, Alaska, and more. But after 7 years on board, I left ship life to settle into city life in Seattle. I got an apartment, I went back to school, I nested. I did all the normal things normal people do. It was good for awhile – city life does have its perks – but ultimately I become bored and disenchanted with that life. I missed the adventure of travel and living as a nomad. I wanted to feel free again, not trapped in a city full of people working a job I was only slightly interested in. So in early 2017, I quit my job, sold most of my things, and ended the longest, most serious relationship I’ve been in to date. Then I left Seattle and I went back to ship life. It was one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever made in my life, primarily because the heartbreak of breaking up with my boyfriend was almost too much to bear, but staying in Seattle was not an option. So I left.
During this life crises (or restructuring?) I tried starting Forever A Wanderer several times. The name actually came to me a few weeks before leaving Seattle when I was sitting on my back porch steps looking up at the stars and wondering if I was making the right decision to leave. I felt like I could also be making the worst decision of my life, but how could I know which path to choose? When the name came to me on those steps, though, I knew that I could not stay in Seattle because I am a nomad at heart. I am a wanderer and even though there were many times in previous years when I hated living out of a backpack or I just wanted a place to call home, I am truly happiest when I call the world my home. I crave the freedom to choose my next adventure and to move around freely with no permanent home base or things to tie me down.
So as I transitioned out of city life, starting a new travel blog felt like something I should do. I used to love documenting my travels on Whereonearth and sharing my stories with friends and family. For some reason, though, it has been really hard to start Forever A Wanderer. I’ve been putting too much pressure on myself to create the ‘next best travel blog’ and knowing that there’s a sliver of chance that blogs can turn into careers, I’m paralyzing myself with the need to be perfect. But unfortunately nothing about this blog is or will be perfect anytime soon (if ever). Part of me says ‘why bother then?’ while another part of me says ‘just do it’. Right now the ‘just do it’ side is slightly in the lead and I’m striving to follow the advice that Elizabeth Gilbert lays out in her book Big Magic – “Let inspiration lead you wherever it wants. For most of history people just made things, and they didn’t make such a big freaking deal out of it.”
So I’ve spent the last week gently forcing myself to just get started (Bird by Bird by Ann Lamotte is another great book on that topic). Who knows where this blog will go, or what it’ll be about, or whether anyone will read it. I just know that I have this strong desire to write a travel blog again, so here we go 🙂